Sunday, October 26, 2008

Dude looks like a lady

So, probably the worst part about PCOS is that it makes you look ugly. Acne, hair, fat, skin tags, masculine features... Not the most appealing physical features. It is pretty easy to tell a woman with PCOS just by looking at her. It has a lot to do with the build of the person. Most women with PCOS will know exactly what I'm talking about. I feel like I have to try very hard to feel pretty.

If you have PCOS and are not ugly, consider yourself lucky. I have a lot more to say about this, but most of it would be profoundly hurtful to other people, so I will not elaborate at this time.  

Often, very often at certain places (Lane Bryant), I will see someone that is a dead ringer PCOS and I wonder if they know what it is. I would almost wish that if I was 30ish and someone could tell what was wrong with me after all those years of wondering I would be thankful. Oh sure, pissed and embarrassed at the time, but in the long run, happy that I finally knew.

No, I don't go up to strangers and ask them if they know what PCOS is, but I think about it. I usually really think about when I see teens. Most of them are probably still clueless and wonder why they are cursed with such terrible problems. I really feel bad for them. But I still don't just walk up to them and plant bugs in their ears. 

I saw two PCOS teens in church today. I feel like I could make a difference in their lives if only it wouldn't be so rude of me to do so. 

Then I think, I'm sure other women with PCOS have seen me before and thought "Oh, I hope that poor girl knows what's wrong with her." And if someone ever did come up to me and tell me that, I would say, "You guessed right and thanks for your concern."

I also feel compelled to tell women with "moon faces" about Cushings (manifests similar to PCOS, they once thought I had this one too), but alas, I'm a big chicken. 

The upside to this is that PCOS (and other disorders) is a much more often recognized problem now than it was back when my mom was a girl (or her and both of her sisters would have been diagnosed). 

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