Sunday, November 16, 2008

I think I put too much faith in my OPKs

My left ovary keeps talking to me, and if I understand it correctly, it's saying, "Na-na-na-na-NA-na." Jerk.

I started out today with a plan:
1. Call RE office to see if I can get in for u/s to see what the heck is going on and possibly trigger if something looks big and juicy enough.
2. Wait for RE's office to call back.
3. Do an OPK earlier than normal to see how things are looking.
4. Compile all information together and make rational decision.

So I now stand at step 4. I took an OPK this morning (after I left message at RE's office) and it's the first one that looked like it it was approaching a positive so that made me hopeful. Then the nurse called back, they can get me in at 3:30 and trigger if necessary but I need to make the decision and call them back. Then I took another OPK that looks completely negative... so now I wait....

So my plan is to do a third OPK in about an hour (currently 12:30) and see what it says... if it is or looks very nearly positive, I think I might forgo the mad dash to the RE's office. If it looks negative, I think I'll go. Worst case scenario is that I take off work early, waste gas (60 mi round trip) and $85 bucks for the ultrasound. Best case scenario, I get there and have a juicy follicle, pony up some additional cash for the trigger, go home and screw DH's brains out, get pregnant and stop the insanity now before it takes any more of my life.

Update a little earlier than I had planned. I had to pee so went ahead and POAS... totally negative. And I thought about it and I know I will let this drive me nuts if I don't go do it... even if it is a waste. Also, I can't seem to get enough of my ugly, bumpy ovaries, so at least I will get to see them again.

I wonder if they think I'm crazy at the RE's office? I just remind myself, I'm probably not the first (or the worst) nut job they've seen.

Update after my appt.

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