Friday, December 19, 2008

Oh no, I think I was wrong

I'm writing this post at 3:30 am because I'm devastated.

It all looked so good and promising the other day. I thought it happened. I never got a the BBT that I wanted but the BBT that I got looked solid still.

I got two BBTs tonight, one earlier, 97.4 and one just a few minutes ago 97.2. Those are not LP temps.

I never ovulated.

My ovary kept hurting yesterday and I though maybe it was just still enlarged. Maybe something did pop yesterday, but what ever happened I'm pretty sure that there is no chance that it will result in a baby.

I'm just so disappointed. At least for one day I got to be happy and hopeful. I knew it was too good to be true.

I talked to my nurse and she talked to Dr. C. I basically begged for prometrium. I want AF to come and save me from the pain of another failed cycle ASAP. Dr. C decided it was alright and is going to let me have it and not making me come in for an u/s. I really debated whether or not to do a u/s... at the last minute I have decided to do it. It will be this afternoon. I have to know for sure if it's still there or not. It's killing me. If there is any chance I should hold out hope, I need to know.

Either way I'm doing the prometrium. This way I get my period and don't have to wait with cyst in tow for a couple of extra weeks. And on the plus side that I could have ovulated, progesterone supplementation should be a positive thing. If it's as I suspect, anovulation again, then starting prometrium today will bring AF in on Jan 1, 2009, and I hope she takes that cyst with her.

I'm so tired and heart sick.


Good Egg Hunting said...

Are you sure? I believe I read once that Clomid can definitely mess with your temps and they become no longer reliable. If you had a trigger shot I think it's almost impossible that you did not ovulate. When I first started the process I had the same fears -- thought my PCOS body was not capable of ovulating, even with the medicine, but it did every time when I triggered. I would not lose hope.

Celia said...

You still made the right choice with the information you had at the time.

Amanda said...

Thanks, gals. I'll let you know how the day turns out.