Thursday, May 28, 2009

Bittersweet

You all know I have my theories. Like my flaxseed theory. With red flax I had a 16 day LP (and I had a u/s to prove ovulation so I know for sure that's right) and without flax I had a 14 day LP (and I had surgery and blood work to support me then too). So last month I ate golden flax and ended up with a 15 day LP. So my theory was that maybe red flax is better than golden and when I hadn't had my period yesterday I just thought I was proving my theory. Cause I knew AF was coming. Totally felt her bearing down. I was walking around with a pad on.

Nevermind.


A great sadness and a great joy at the same time. I have often thought to myself this cycle that if it worked, that somehow, in a way, this embryo will have felt and known how much I loved Muffy.

I'm still very worried of course, my boobs have almost quit hurting and I wasn't expecting that. I will go in for a beta this morning and update later.

18 comments:

White Picket Fences said...

Oh. My. God. Congratulations!!!!! I am soooo freaking excited for you I can't even tell you. Wonderful!! Are they drawing progesterone levels too? Us PCOS'ers have a hard time with that you know ..cause in general...our ovaraies suck. I made them draw one every other day for a week and a half ..and eventually needed progesterone support.

AHHHH!! Congratulations!!!

Christy said...

Wow!! What a month!
Congrats- you certainly deserve it!

Celia said...

It is wonderful that it worked. I believe boobs hurt off and on.

Michelle said...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats!!!! I'm so happy for you!

Juls said...

OMG how exciting....when one door closes another one opens! Big Hugs and well wishes sent your way!

Julie

Thomas said...

I've been following your blog for a few months, and I am really excited for you! It took me many years to get pregnant (I have PCOS), but when I finally did, my breasts were not sore all the time; in fact, they weren't sore at all for a while, and it really worried me. The suggestion about progesterone is a good one; I also ended up needing additional progesterone for the first trimester. Congratulations!!

SCS said...

OMG...that is amazing...congratulations!!!

Jill said...

Congratulations! I am SO happy for you!!!!!

Hope said...

congratulations...this is so wonderful to hear!

I am so sad to hear about you losing your furr baby.

birdsandsquirrels said...

OH MY GOD! I know it is bittersweet, with just losing Muffy, but wow, how amazing that you get this wonderful gift along with heartbreaking loss.

As for the boobs not hurting - don't worry about it too much. My boobs stopped hurting after my positive, and haven't really hurt at all this entire pregnancy.

I am so happy that this cycle worked, even with all of the stress of Muffy's decline. You are pregnant!

Kacy said...

Revel in the excitement. I am sure that it will hit you all of a sudden and you'll scream OMG it's true! Congrats! www.infertilityinstability.blogspot.com

Dianne said...

Wow, all I can say is wow!

Dianne said...

Wow, all I can say is wow!

I like how you spring it on us at the end!!!!!

Congrats Girlie!!!

The Wife said...

Amanda,
I must be the worst blogging friend in the world to have missed all of this. I'm so sorry.
First, I'm sorry about Muffy. I know that the hurt you feel about her right now seems like it will never go away and part of it won't but someday it will be better and when you remember her, you'll be a little sad, but mainly you'll remember all the wonderful things about her.
Second, Congratulations!!! I'm so excited for you. I can't wait to hear all about your pregnancy! I'm looking forward to your take on it (and your humor!)!!
Lastly, thank you for caring about me and inquiring after me. In such a sad time in your life, your concern that I had dropped off the blogosphere means so much to me. I promise to be a better blogging friend and k.i.t.
Again congrats on the BFP!!! Yay!

wannabmomma said...

Wow! How exciting!

Hillary said...

OH MY GOSH!!! With all my sadness over Muffy I almost forgot you were even cycling (silly me!). Oh, sweetie, this is wonderful!! You are pregnant, can you believe it?!? I'm hoping your bloodwork comes back GREAT!

makingmemom.blogspot.com

Good Egg Hunting said...

Congratulations!! I am so thrilled for you...I look forward to continued good news, including from today's beta! And don't worry about the sore bbs -- mine have been very on and off, which my nurse said is totally normal.

Lucy said...

Congratulations!!!!