Thursday, August 20, 2009

Whining

New Boss hasn't sent out the email announcement yet.

He's a really busy guy, but I think he's putting it off too. I never figured New Boss to be a procrastinator, but I think it's showing on him right now.

And I'm a bit mixed over it not getting out yet. A part of me will feel a little relieved that it's out there. And I'm not showing terribly, but when I wear maternity clothes, it becomes a bit more obvious. I'm sure some of the people that haven't been told are probably getting suspicious by now.

But the best thing about people not knowing is that it keeps me from whining. I'm a natural whiner. I do it so much I don't even realize it when I do it. But I don't want to be a whiner about pregnancy. Yes, I'm tired, but being pregnant isn't a free pass to whine about it all day long. Yes, I'm sucking on a tums, but I don't need to go on about it. And I don't like hunting people down in the office all day (the getting up and down and running all over is more annoying these days) but I'll do it and keep my mouth shut.

But once the whole office knows that I'm pregnant I might be tempted to milk it. And I want to be a tough chick that can do it all and not let this be an excuse.

Most of my coworker have sahm wives. If you're planning on being a sahm, good for you, a part of me is a little jealous, but at the same time I find it a little dissappointing that these smart women with degrees and prior careers gave it all up to support their husbands and raise their children. I want to do my work well and raise awesome kids and do it in front of these guys to show them that I can. I don't get along with my mom all that well, but I have to admit that she set a pretty good example in this area and I want to do an even better job than her, particurlarly if I have a daughter. I want her to know that she doesn't have to choose and that the sky's the limit.

5 comments:

Celia said...

This isn't even close to whining babe.

I would be getting antsy waiting for my boss to send that email for sure. I am looking forward to not hiding, but I am not looking forward to unsolicited advice. I work with almost all women. 4 men and 16 women.

Neve Steinberg said...

I've been reading your blog for a while now. Let me tell you that you are nowhere near to being a whiner. In fact I've always admired your aplomb!

Michelle said...

I think after finally telling them, I'd be anxious about the wait as well. I admire that you made it so long before telling them! I don't think I could have done it.

Ashley said...

Good for you! I agree---it's disappointing so many women leaving the workforce. But not (to me) because that's what they (individually) have decided to do, but because that is what our collective society demands of them. It's interesting becoming a parent with your spouse. It's all egalitarian-ish until you're the one recovering from labor, breastfeeding (probably), and planning preschools, playdates (because it's rare that dads all get together for this), etc.

A total mindf_ck for some of us ;-).

And you wait as long as you need to until you're ready to let your colleagues know you're pregnant. Other moms and THE LAW are on your side.

I sound harsh here!

Lovins,
Ashley

birdsandsquirrels said...

I am embarrassingly behind on comments. Sorry! You are most definitely not a whiner! I hope that your boss sends the email out soon.

I'm going to be staying at home, pretty much just because I can't find a job in my field here to save my life. While I do appreciate the fact that I will be able to spend a lot of time with the baby, I worry about my ability to get back into the workforce in a few years, and I worry about going crazy with no adult contact and no mental challenges. In an ideal world, I would find a job that I love, that challenges me, and lets me work a part time schedule.

I so respect that you will be going back to work and be an awesome mom at the same time. You will be setting a great example for your children, that you don't have to give up your career in order to raise a family.