Tuesday, September 22, 2009

21 weeks

Confession time: I've put on weight way too quickly. I did really good the first trimester, I think I put on 2 lbs if that. I was doing good a few weeks ago, then I exploded! It was like over night, I'd put on like 5 lbs and a week later I had another 5 lbs. And I don't know how! Really! I think I have put on 11 or 12 lbs. NOT GOOD. I'm only suppose to put on 15.

I'm still watching the blood sugar, and it looks ok to me, so that doesn't appear to be an obvious culprit.

More likely all the eating I've done is responsible. Being a vegetarian, I've been pretty worried about getting protein and it's not like I can just eat some baked chicken or turkey or other lean cut of meat. I have to think about every meal and squeeze in every opportunity.

Breakfast hasn't really changed, so that shouldn't be causing problems... actually I'm eating less because I can't eat a 1/2 cup of oatmeal (uncooked) at a sitting.

Lunch is about the same too.

Dinner yeah, it's varied, but about the same.

What's the difference? Probably snacking. I've been having a midmorning snack of cheese... usually cheese and crackers or string cheese. Sometimes nuts too.

And then the afternoon snack of nuts or fruit. Actually, I normally ate some fruit in the afternoon, so that's not different either.

And a glass of (skim) milk or two everyday (one at night to swallow all my freakin horse pills).

I don't think I've been that bad, certainly not so much worse than normal that I should go from losing weight to EXPLOSION. Cause, a few months ago I was loosing weight effortlessly. Apparently I've not been as good as I thought. But I was just trying to get some extra protein and calcium in. I don't know what I am suppose to do.

After the first explosion, I started watching things more closely but it didn't prevent the next one. I feel like a total failure. My baby is huge and it's all my fault. But I don't know what to do about it. I can't exactly diet. I can put the screws even tighter on my diet, but I don't think I can tighten them much, meet my calorie goals and protein goals. Oh, and exercise, I don't want to go into that right now, but yes, I need to do more, and IT WOULD BE NICE IF MY HUSBAND WOULD ACCOMPANY ME ON A WALK OR SOMETHING. (Not that typing that will help... he doesn't read the blog.)

Someone please come over and kick my ass. I need it. But please, spare me the judgement.


Mary said...

It sounds like you are eating really well. I didn't hear any mention of downing a chocolate cake or eating 20 mini-peanut butter cups anywhere in that post:) So, I think your body is just pregnant. I've gained 16 lbs so far too. Ugh.

missing_one said...

It sounds like you are eating healthy.

I too was trying to gain less weight this time around (counting calories, exercising) and so far I've still gained the 'normal' range. I too didn't really gain any the first trimester. I too have just put on about 9 pounds. So I don't know what else to say, but I'm in the same boat sista'.
The only thing that I think helps is the exercise. The books all say that about now we should be gaining a pound a week, so I don't know how much we can really help it, despite our efforts. *sigh*

Michelle said...

It really sounds to me like your are doing good. It sounds like you are still being careful and making sure you get what you need. You are not a failure though! Don't let yourself think that. Watching weight and maintaining is really hard to start with, and add to it the fact of trying it on your own, it makes it worse. I can't imagine trying to watch every pound while pregnant too! Don't beat yourself up over it. I still think it sounds like you are doing good.

Jill said...

As long as you're eating healthy and making sure the baby gets what it needs, that's all that matters. I know so many people who gained a TON of weight (like 70lbs) while they were pregnant, and they came out with perfectly healthy babies. Hang in there! You're doing great!

Celia said...

Booboo, I am not kicking your ass. You are doing the best you can. Maybe you could try those calcium chews? Or those Belly Bars? That could pack in the nutrients without as many calories. Don't forget that a lot of the weight is the placenta and fluid. Your blood volume has increased hugely as well. Try not to upset yourself.

Maybe you could stir some Ovaltine into your skim milk, that has a ton of vitamins. I have a cup of Ovaltine as my nighttime snack now.

Suraita said...

It actually sounds like you are doing really well. Stuff with weight, food, and nutrition always seems a little frustrating and then adding in pregnancy makes it more so. I don't have any genius ideas but it sounds like you are really trying the hardest you can, which is the best anyone can do.

Sophie A. said...

I was just going to say what everyone else says about your diet sounding really healthy. I've been eating a lot of cheese too, mostly because I can't tolerate milk, precisely because of the calcium issue. It's tough to know what to do. The hospital where my RE is monitoring offers consultations with nutritionists. It does sound like you're eating well, but if you want a second opinion, would your insurance cover seeing a nutritionist? My pants are already too tight and I'm only 6 weeks, so I don't know if I can offer much advice right now :P.

Amanda said...

Celia, I mix some carnation instant breakfast (no sugar added) in my milk to get an extra 5g of protein in the evening.

And Sophie, apparently my ins does NOT cover nutritional counseling because they have already denied my gestational diabetes counseling session which they told me would be covered. So I'm already having fun fighting them on that one. It's a giant headache! But dammit! I'm going to get them to pay up!

LORI said...

I gained weight exactly the same with my first...5 lbs at my 20 week appointment then it was 5 lbs every appointment, but the appointments went from monthly, to twice a month, to weekly...5 lbs, 5 lbs, 5 lbs! Ugh! But...the most important part...I had a beautiful, healthy 7 lb, 11 oz baby girl. (And I was anemic my whole pregnancy.) Our bodies are amazing and that baby is growing and taking what it needs from what you're doing. And from the sound of it, you're already taking amazing care of that little one! Keep it up and have some faith in your body (even though I know it hasn't always done you right)...it's gotten you to this point...it's going to redeem itself --- just wait and see!! :)