Sometimes I feel like I have too many options... and it makes it hard to make decisions. Sometimes, it's nice to have someone else make the decision for me.
Ever have a hard time trying to decide where to eat? Sometimes I wish my husband would just say, "I want to eat at Joe's this week." I like Joe's, thanks for making it easy for me and now we don't have to deliberate over the ever important decision of where to eat any longer.
But with the OB switch thing, I have lots of options and feel really overwhelmed. Truly, I'm glad that I can make the decision for myself, but that doesn't make it an easy one.
I emailed the Independent Birth Center in the area asked them for a recommendation (I really don't think I'd be a good candidate for the IBC). I got a prompt response for a Family Doctor that delivers at a hospital I didn't even know existed.
Family doctor, not obstetrician? That's a change. She apparently is trained in cesarean sections should I need one. And obviously she's not 1 in 20 doctors in a big OB practice, so that might be a big plus, because I will know with a large degree of certainty who will deliver me (although I wonder what would happen if she went on vacation or something).
This doctor was recommended because she used to do deliveries at the IBC and supports natural births. If she's used to doing natural births in a non hospital setting, that says a lot about her.
And this hospital that I didn't know existed (I was already deliberating between 4 others, so this is #5), it's a very small community hospital in a town I wasn't considering delivering in. However, it's no further away from me than where I was planning, and my husband works in that town, so that might be a plus (he didn't know they had a hospital either). And the fact that it's so small might be an advantage too because they might not use such a strict protocol and as many interventions.
But this hospital change is a HUGE mindshift. I was planning on using one of the GIGANTIC hospitals in the city with the nice level III NICUs and such. There's probably nothing wrong with a small facility, and it's not like I'm going from a hospital to a home birth setting, but I still feel a little uncomfortable with that.
I have an appointment with her a week from now. I need to really think about this and get my list of questions and insecurities together quickly now. It's another option, and it's a good option, but wish it didn't feel like such a big decision. I can't even decide where to eat most of the time.