Saturday, January 23, 2010

The last couple days and the week ahead

I think I'm doing better than I was Thursday. I'm not too worried about his fluid level because my belly is looking more rounded and full like it should and his movements have been good. I've been drinking like crazy, which really is crazy because I consume way more water than the most guidelines say normally. I usually down at least a gallon to 1.5 gallons of liquid (mostly water, but some juice and milk) a day. I made sure to hit 2 gallons yesterday and I'm still working on it today.

I talked with my boss on Friday and decided for myself that Tuesday should probably be my last day at work. I have my last OB appt on Wednesday and I'm worried if I work that morning my BP will be high again and I will be told not to go back to work anyhow so I might as well just not work. And there is no prize for working up until I'm in labor. And getting some extra rest before the birth will be good for me.

Contractions are still very few and far between. Not really expecting any early surprises at this point.

DH is at the grocery store. We have an ambitious meal list for this week. We are trying to make lots of good food this week because next week will probably be lots of frozen stuff. On the menu for this next week:
Tonight - Stacked Enchilada Bake
Sun - Eggplant and Zucchini Parmesan
Mon - Black Beans and Rice
Tues - Lentil Puree (Dahl)
Wed - Mediterranean Oven Pancake (zucchini and feta in an oven pancake)
Thurs - Bean and Rice Casserole
Fri - Bean and Nut Loaf
Sat - Last Date out for awhile
Sun - Fettuccine Alfredo

I think the fettuccine will probably be lunch because that might be a little heavy right before an induction. But all that pasta and fat ought to give me some good energy.

Also, I have discovered that black beans are probably this kid's favorite food. Nothing gets him wiggling like those beans do which I think is kinda funny and I definitely enjoy all the movement.

My chocolate cravings are pretty bad right now... I requested DH get lots of chocolate instant pudding at the store.

I'm pretty nervous about delivering. I try not to think about it a lot at this point. We'll get from here to there somehow.

I'm going through a lot of sad and weepy moods lately. I know I'm going to miss being pregnant. He's so large right now I can easily put my hands on him and pretend that I'm holding him and that's going to change soon and I will be holding him, but it won't ever be the same. I also think DH is missing out because he isn't taking advantage of this time and he's going to miss it and not even realize it.

And I was bawling Friday walking into work. I caught a glimpse of the car seat base as I was locking the car and thought a thought I've had many times now, "Someone is going to let me have a baby and take it home." Then I was thinking how weird it will be to bring the car seat into my house with a baby in it. And then I thought back to how this pregnancy began... the sadness of walking into the house without our Muffy baby. I can only dream about how different it will be to bring our child home.


Good Egg Hunting said...

Wow -- we're really down to the wire now -- I wish you the best of luck! I am like you -- I think maintaining a sense of denial about delivery is the best approach. It will happen, and thinking about it too much can't be helpful...also am impressed with your meal planning. I can never get my act together enough to plan out a week's worth of meals. Anyway, I know it's very bittersweet to think of no longer being pregnant, but here's to the parenting phase of this journey!

Michelle said...

I remember the end being really emotional for me too. I think when you go through what we have with infertility, it's different at the end...I promise you though, as much as you'll miss what is happening right now, when that little guy is here, it will be better than anything else! :)
I hope you enjoy your last few days and that everything goes smoothly for you. Good luck!

Sophie A. said...

So bittersweet, but mostly sweet :). I'm really excited for you--what an experience it'll be to hold him in your arms for the first time, too!

Your menu sounds so good! Glad you're gonna take it easy for the next few days. Rest up--the delivery will be great, you've done such a good job of preparing yourself/planning for the special day! :)

missing_one said...

best of luck with the induction! You may not want to eat anything too heavy the day before because labor will make you feel the urge to go #2 all the time anyways. And expect a slow process. both my first and third inductions were about 12 hours long (my second induction was shorter because i was already contracting on my own. feel free to email me with any questions about the induction experience. best wishes!

Michelle said...

So close now! Your blog is the first IF blog I started to read, I remember reading all of your back-log of blogs.
Cheering you on from across the blog-a-verse.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you will stop work on Tuesday. You should definitely try to get some extra rest this week!

Denial about the delivery is the way to go. I keep meaning to write a follow up post about my fears and how nothing was as bad as I was worried about. It will all be okay.

I was sad and weepy too. I think it's totally normal, and very hormonally related. It's amazing how life works out - losing Muffy and gaining this pregnancy in the same week. Bringing your baby home is going to be amazing, and I can't wait to hear all about it!

Della said...

Wow ... I just wanted to let you know that although I'm a "cyber stalker" of sorts, since I don't know you and found your blog through another I read -- it's amazing to read your stories because we could be the exact same person! From the PCOS and infertility stuff all the way down to the cloth diapers, homemade denim bedskirt and farm-y theme nursery! Really, it's freaky. We should talk sometime!!

Anyhow, congrats on your upcoming little one, it's such a great gift and surreal when there's finally a little one in that car seat!

Good luck!

meggo said...

I am so excited for you Amanda! You are soooo close! Soak up every minute of that big round baby belly, and then soak up that little boy!