before I go back to work.
I was going to start back this week, but then his daycare has a teacher training day Friday, so I figured that I'd just wait until next week. I'm starting back on Wednesday because a full week of work sounds pretty intimidating to start out.
I haven't ever forced the kid into a schedule but I have tried to encourage him to develop a schedule that we can both be happy with. Like at night, we are really doing pretty well, but it took weeks to get him to this point.
But we aren't anywhere near a day schedule... some days I can't get him to sleep at all (like today) and other days I can barely wake him before 1pm, and there isn't any kind of pattern or trigger to it that I can tell. I'm going to feel really bad for the kid while he's adjusting to the daycare's schedule, but I think he will be happier actually. Cause the days that I can't get him to sleep he really isn't a happy boy, he's just too tired, so if they can get him to a more consistent day time schedule and we can eliminate those bad days it will be good for him.
And I think the bottle feeding will really make a difference. He used to "snacking" all day and cat napping. Having a big filling bottle will help him to take a nap better, I think.
I think I've found him a good daycare. It was tough to find a spot, but the one I've enrolled him in is really, really close to my office and a new facility. The babies (0-24 months) are in a separate building from the older kids. The teachers are young and no one smelled like smoke. I didn't see a TV anywhere in the baby house. The feed the older children organic food and teach baby sign language. And they are willing to do the cloth diapers. I hope everything is as good as it seems.
And a big part of me wishes I could just stay at home with him. Right now, the thought of being apart from him all day is very sad, but I know we need to do it and I know it will get easier. I'm not cut out for this SAHM stuff. I just need more. And I feel ashamed to say this, but I get worn out staying home. My brain doesn't like doing the same thing all the time, I get bored. I need to go to work and get bored there so that I can be a better mom, if that makes any sense. And honestly, my paid job is much easier than being SAHM (I bet all the guys I work with would deny that). And I need to not be mad at my husband for not clinging to my every word as I describe our exciting day at home.
So a week. I hope it doesn't go too fast.