Wednesday, June 30, 2010

5 months

I meant to get this out yesterday. My normal excuse for being late on stuff is that I'm lazy, but I would have to say that is no longer the case. Now I'm just busy and very tired and take the chance to sleep when I get it... email, blog, paying bills, returning phone calls can wait.

I know a lot of women dream about their babies when they are TTC or pregnant. They can see what their baby will look like and act like before he or she takes a breath of air. Some pregnant mothers will even know the gender of their babies just from a feeling or intuition.

I was not one of those women. At all. I never dreamed about what my baby would look like. Once I tried hard to imagine it and I imagined a baby, but I never felt like I was imagining my baby. Not even ultrasound photos helped. I couldn't have guessed the gender for the life of me, however my SIL instinctively knew she was having a boy and after she found out that I was pregnant, she just knew that we were having a boy too (I found this a bit annoying).

But maybe I'm glad I didn't have any preconceived notions (pun intended) about my baby. I wouldn't have wanted him to live up to some unfair expectation about what color of hair he would have or whose disposition he would more closely resemble.

But now, wow, I can picture this kid holding a crayon and looking up at me from a coloring book. I can see him throwing a tantrum as a toddler. I can see him walking into school on the first day of kindergarten. I don't have any trouble seeing now because I know him.

Even if I had been one of those women, I doubt that I would have ever been able to imagine something this great.


9 comments:

Lucy said...

Adorable pictures:)

And I never could have said if he was a boy or a girl when I was pregnant either. I dont know how people have a "feeling."

Michelle said...

Yeah, my feeling with K was girl at first. Ha....Although he can throw some really girly fits. I wonder if that's what I was seeing...
The pictures are so cute! I can't believe he is 5 months already!

~Jess said...

I never could imagine what my daughter would look like, but I was the only one that one that had any feeling about her being a girl.

He's a cutie!

Michelle said...

That tub picture is beyond adorable! I have always dreamed of baby girls and my mom has too. I hope I get a chance to find out.

wannabmomma said...

Wow, five months already! Time is flying isn't it?!!? He's such a cutie!

I also never dreamed of my babies or had a feeling either way what they would be. I was surprised to find out they were both girls though. I guess I just assumed I'd have two boys or one of each.

Kate said...

He's just so cute! I had no expectations, just hoped for healthy, and with any luck for reddish hair and non-eczema skin. So far, so good!

Noemi said...

I love the pics of your little guy! So cute! I feel the same way, I'm 32wks don't have a clue either way regarding the sex (cause we didn't find out) and I don't have a feeling either way.

Good Egg Hatched said...

Happy 5 mos! H's is tomorrow. I know just how you feel. I sort of felt like he was a familiar "presence" but couldn't imagine how he would look/sound/be. And the reality is so much better than I could've imagined too.

birdsandsquirrels said...

He is so cute! 5 months already!

Where did you get your bath seat? Birdie is way too long for her infant tub but is not sitting up on her own yet and I am scared to death to move to the big tub. That seat looks perfect.

I couldn't imagine what she would be like before she was born. I know what you mean though. Now I can envision her throwing tantrums in the grocery store and snuggling with the kitties.