I had a conversation with my therapist the other week on turning 30. I told her that I was looking forward to it because I find my 20 year old self annoying and I'm hoping that I won't bother myself so much when I'm 30. I was recounting this conversation with my husband last night and he asked me what I did in my 20's that was so cringe worthy. The biggest, quickest to point to example I can think of was our wedding. Oh, what a freakin nightmare. The guest-list, the registry, showers, bridesmaids. I recently told one of DH's cousins that she should be glad that she wasn't engaged yet, because she'll make much better decisions about her wedding if she knows herself better (I was
But there are plenty of other things about 20 that I don't mind leaving in the past. Infertility and TTC #1. Done. Good riddance. My acne. Somehow it's finally come under control in the last year or so. It would have been nice if that had happened a decade earlier, but I'll take anything I can get in that department. My hair is a hell of a lot better looking these days too. I have naturally curly hair and I've finally accepted it. I despise all the straight hair girls that say they wish they had curly hair... it took me 29 years to figure out how to make this look good (thank you Curly Girl Handbook). I'm still a work in progress, but I was able to look in the mirror on my birthday and I was happier with the woman looking back at me than I have been in years.
I'm busy trying to take better care of the rest of myself too. My mental health is doing pretty good. I finally got a new doctor (since McSoothy is no longer available) and got my pap done and some blood work (all good!). I've got a dermatologist appointment for later this week to do a mole check, which I have put off longer than I should have considering that skin cancer killed my grandfather and I'm super fair-skinned. I really need to go to the dentist (that's about 3 years over due) and get an eye exam (I think I was about 10 last time I got one of those) and 2013 is the year to get caught up on those.
I am sad that we are going to delay our plans to start TTCing again, but it's because I want more time to get fit and check off some of those overdue doctors appointments before we start that business up again. My original life plans included being done having children by the time I was 30, but that's ok. I'm not going to fret over that the way I would have a few years ago.
So this is 30 and it seems pretty good.